Day Twenty-Six - Accountability is Key

Sometimes in life things get frustrating really quickly.  A normal day at work.  The clock strikes five and I shut it down and head for the car.  I climb into the car and try to put my key in the ignition.  This is where the trouble began.  The key would not go into the ignition.  After sitting in a burning hot car doing everything I know to fix the situation, I realized it was no use and called a friend/mechanic.  So now my poor little "Blue Car" (as E calls it) sits all alone in the parking lot at work waiting for the parts to arrive on Wednesday.

Let's walk through why I bring up what happened tonight.  I have always been an emotional eater.  When I get stressed or frustrated I immediately binge.  In college if I had a big test, I would put down the majority (if not all) of a pizza or a few McDoubles (and fries).  When money problems arise, we have car trouble, or Bekah and I are disagreeing on something, I turn to food.  It honestly isn't intentional.  If there is anyone out there that has done research about this, I would love to know if I'm right, but I think the emotions trigger something that makes me feel hungry.  I can have just eaten and feel beyond full, and then when something stressful hits, it's like I haven't eaten in hours.

So what was different this time?  How did I fight that false feeling of hunger?  This time I had a system in place that helped.  This time I had you, my faithful readers (at least according to my traffic data there are a few of you out there).  I am tracking my food as close as I can through myfitnesspal.  I knew that I would have to blog about my failure on here.  It really does boil down to the fact that this time I had accountability.  So right now I am so grateful for this blog.  I am grateful for myfitnesspal.  And I am grateful for you all out there in the blogosphere.  I am fully confident that it is accountability (along with the grace of God) that helped me persevere tonight.  And I am even more convinced that it is accountability that will help me lose my butter half.

Today's calories were good.  Still didn't get exercise in with was happened to the car.  I'm a little worried that sitting in the car and eating the unhealthy fast foods this past weekend might have set me back this week, I guess we'll see on Thursday.