Day One Hundred and Thirty - It Was a Dark Forest Kind of Day

I realized something today.  I am going to be fighting this battle for a long time.  It may not be every day or even every month, but the monster that is gluttony will raise it's read over and over again throughout the course of my life.  I say that because today, for the first time in a while, I had an urge to just give in.  To throw all of my progress out the window and just binge.  I don't think I've had a true binge craving in a long time.  I was thinking about dinner and what we had to eat, and I wanted to eat an entire pizza.  Seriously, if I had an entire large pizza right in front of me I might have eaten it (I hope self-control and the Holy Spirit would have kicked in and stopped me).  Then after a little while I wanted a bag of chips.  When I say a bag, I literally mean an entire bag.  From the large whole  chips at the top to the millions of tiny pieces that you have to tip the bag and pour into your mouth at the end (come on, you know you do it too!).  Thankfully, it didn't last long and a workout changed my focus.  It is still frustrating, because I was really hoping that part of me was long gone.  I guess it jumped on a train and tried to come for a visit.

So what about the rest of you out there?  Am I the only one that has those moments of weakness?  I'm hoping this is going to be a rare occurrence (or even a one time thing brought on by the pizza and snack commercials during football games).  I think the life changes I've made to not keep those foods around as often helped when that craziness hit today.  The thing that helped the most was thinking about what my blog post would say tonight.  "Err... my calories weren't too good because I had 3200 calories of pizza."  Honestly, I think I would just be so ashamed I wouldn't post.  I'd just shut it all down.  That's the way it works typically.  Adversity hits, and people just give in.  They do a lot of hard work and make some great progress, but when they get to the thickest part of their journey they give in.  It's like the children's books when someone is lost and they've made it most of the way home, but they still have to go through the dark forest.  Most people don't go through the forest.  Well, I'm not just going to go through the dark forest, I'm going to clean it up.  I'm going to cut down the thorns and vines and let the sunshine in.  You can do the same.  Whatever your dark forest on your journey is, you can defeat it.  Join me and we'll reach our goals together.  I had a rough day along my journey, but I'm still losing my butter half.

I stayed within my calorie goal, even with the temptations and snacks.  I was pleased to get a workout in and it really helped overcome some crazy cravings and thoughts.  Weigh in day will be here before I know it.  It's time to buckle down!