Day Two Hundred and Three - Food For Thought

One thing that always got under my skin in the past was people who are losing weight and want to coach everyone else on how to do it.  I would think in my head, "gosh, you've been fat for years, you lose a few pounds and suddenly you're an expert."  I'm sure a lot of my negative thoughts and annoyance was from the guilt of being overweight myself and being too gluttonous to do something about it.  I loved food, and I still do (just ask Bekah how many Tasty videos I send her each day of things I think would be fun to make), and because I wasn't willing to give up those bad habits, or practice self-control, other people tell me how to lose weight was irritating.  One of my biggest fears is that I will allow myself to be like one of those people.  I don't want to find myself giving input where it isn't asked, and then feeling like a hypocrite.  I don't want my blog to be anything more than accountability for my journey, and an inspiration to those who want to meet goals of their own (weight loss related or not).  I'm not an expert in weight loss.  I only know what I have done and what works for my situation.  My method may not work for everyone.  If you want to loss weight, or you are inspired to start a weight loss journey, then I hope this blog is something that gives you encouragement and maybe even a few ideas for success. 

I don't want to be the guy that tells you how to lose weight.  Even more than that I don't want to be the guy that always talks about weight.  I feel like we put too much pressure on appearance in our society.  If we are losing weight, then we want to point out to everyone else how to do it.  If we are over weight, then we just talk about how fat we are and how we need to lose weight.  We are self-absorbed with our image as well as the looks of others.  That's why I'm trying to do so much more than just lose weight.  I want this to be a personal growth journey.  I want to be learning self-control.  I want to change myself so that I can have a better impact on others.  I'm learning to enjoy food rather than live for it.  I recognize the control it can have over me and how it impacts everyone in my life as well as hurts my finances.  So when I talk about my weight loss, I am not just talking about becoming a better looking person (that's all in the eye of the beholder), rather I'm talking about becoming a healthier person.  For me, getting healthy is about decision making and striving to meet goals.  It's constantly growing, and being aware of how my life affects those around me.  I have a lot of room for growth, and I grow more each day as I lose my butter half.

My calorie intake today was really good.  I'm really enjoying the foods I'm eating, and a big thanks goes out to Bekah for preparing such wonderful meals (Apple Pork Loin for dinner tonight - recipe here).  I got another full ride in this evening, and continued my crunches.  Tomorrow I'll add a second set of fifteen to my crunches.  I'm really curious to see where I weigh in tomorrow morning.  I've worked really hard this past week, and I'm hoping it will pay off.